Why haven’t I been updating?
Well, I’m busy. Sure. And I’m extra tired and getting my thyroid checked because I suspect it’s the culprit (I’m already on Synthroid, but my levels haven’t been checked for a year). Uh huh.
But really, it’s because I don’t feel like my living has been all that healthy.
I’m still running, but I skip workouts more often than I’d like. I’m not getting faster. I’m not losing weight. I tried to join Weight Watchers again recently and just wasn’t feeling it. I’m frustrated. Tired. Worn down. Sick of calorie counting, wanting to just eat healthy like you healthy bloggers do. But I’m not motivated to play in the kitchen. I hate chopping vegetables. And when I get home from a long, tired day, I eat way too much while sitting on my bed in front of my computer.
I’m not married anymore. I don’t have someone there every night to cook for or to eat with (even if we were eating in front of the TV, we were eating together).
I’m still flailing.
And what sucks is that I made this blog to chronicle my journey of learning how to be healthy single, and I’m hiding from it because I’m ashamed.
But I am still running. I’ve got a post brewing about May Madness. And last night I did have dinner with someone, after doing a CrossFit circuit workout. We had tofu and salad:
And I felt great and healthy afterwards. Obviously. And today I’m sore in that just right kind of way.
Tomorrow I’m planning to have a green monster. I bought kale and almond milk and everything.